What is a Life?

What do I want out of Life?  What kind of Life do I want to live?

Of course there's always the part where we wonder and worry about money. Money is the thing that makes the world go round. It helps to form this thing we call "A Life".  This is where things begin to get tricky, when we know what kind of Life we want to live but just don't know how to go about it.

I recently lost a job, due to a company closure. A job that provided stability for my family and for me. I loved what I did and not very many people can say that.  So many people have said "It's not your fault" "Something will work out" and they're right, something will work out, but it's all about time.

All I want is a simple life.

I want a life where I am able to provide for the needs of my family, a life where I have the time to spend with my wife, go to my children's activities and serve in my church. I don't want to be a corporate drone who works endless hours to make a quick buck. I don't want the high-pressure, high-stress way of doing business. I do need money to survive but not at the expense of family, sanity and quality of Life. That's just too big of a cost & Life's too short.

I crave stability, order and structure. A simple life.  How do I get this life I crave so much? I have no idea!

I need a job, that's a given. I want one I enjoy doing, that complements my skillset. A job I can be proud of and still cover all our expenses yet let me live the life I want to live. This is not an easy task. Everything in our world keeps getting more and more expensive. It never seems to be enough. All I want to do is go back to the days when life was sweet, simple and beautiful. A world where we learned to do a certain skill and do it well; not one where we're required to continually know how to do everything for nothing. This is what I seem to find in my field. Employment where I'm supposed to be super-human. Know everything, do everything and oh by the way get paid hardly anything. They want to take all my time, energy, effort and leave me with nothing. No sense of pride, Nothing!  I feel like I'm being sucked dry and I don't have a choice because I need to provide for my family. So what do I do?

So again I say I want a simple Life. I don't want to live in this corporate droned world I seem to find myself in, but I don't know how to escape or change it. I am a Graphic Designer. I love to create something from nothing. I can sit for hours doodling in Photoshop or Illustrator coming up with a solution to a visual problem. I am an artist. I love beautiful creations. There just doesn't seem to be a place for an Artist among the simple country folk. I'm not a farmer or rancher, sometimes I like to think of myself as a Cowboy. This is where I long to be... but I am chained to the fast paced city lifestyle for possible job opportunities.

How do I get the best of both worlds?

Individual Duality

Do you remember Smeagol from Lord of the Rings?

Well he had an alternate personality, his natural man,Gollum. Gollum was wild, sensual & greedy. He wanted it all, & he wanted it now. Smeagol had a hard time controlling Gollum, keeping him in check to do the right thing. Well we all know what happened to him, Gollum  got the best of him and he was destroyed with the ring.

We all have a Gollum inside us, crying to get out. The world is full of "natural man" tendencies. Rebellion, Greed, Lust. It's that urge to do something crazy just for the heck of it. It tells you "you'll be free" to do what you want, whenever you want. We all have that urge to be "FREE". We want what we want no matter the cost.

Yet there is a ruling force in the universe that helps us keep this guy in check. It's called our conscious. He tells us what's right and what's wrong thus helping us to control our natural desires and tendencies. Not necessarily forever as some are not all bad just need to be expressed in the right context.

Lately I've been feeling this pressure from the inside. It feels like I'm living in a video game and that this isn't 'real life'. That one day I'll wake up to find this "freedom". The day I finally quit suppressing, avoiding, ignoring and start living the way I've always wanted to. It feels like no matter what happens right now, it's not permanent. Have you ever felt like just going crazy? Doing things you wouldn't normally do only to experience the rush irregardless of the consequences good or bad.

Our duality is also expressed in James Cameron's Avatar, however slightly different. It's not as focused on good and bad choices or desires as it is individuality and finding one's true self. Jake Sully is a human who finds himself in a science experiment in efforts to make contact with an alien race. The concept is you can physically connect to an "avatar" body and virtually live inside it as your own as long as your host or original self stays in tact. Jake begins his journey of self discovery as he enters his new body and begins to live that life during the day and his old self at night. He eventually wonders which one is the 'true reality'. He eventually leaves his old life and finds himself engulfed in the one he has learned to love the most, his avatar.

I too have felt torn or split as you will or physically connected to another life. It goes back to that inner person the one who dreams of doing things and being someone else, wanting so badly to take control. Yet I suppress my I.D. or inner desires striving to live in what I consider to be 'my reality'. I reality I think I have control but quickly find I don't. Sometimes it seems I can't do anything the way I think it should be or overcome any obstacles. Therefore, I feel trapped in a video game like world hopping and waiting for my other life or even a way out. Thinking that nothing will ever change and that if something sad happens I can just restart the level and everything will be okay again.  Time will just go on forever.

These I.D.'s lead my natural man to want to get out and explore the world around him and sometimes it's hard in this duality to keep him in line and under control. Questions go unanswered, problems are on the rise and stress seems to be a daily occurrence. People change, loved ones leave, some friends stay and some friends go. Life is ever changing & seems to be a fight within ones self. There was a choice in the beginning and there's a choice now. The things we do and say effect the path we take and the places we go, the people we meet & the life we live and eventually the life we will live later. So what's the answer? How do we live the life we desire inside and allow our inner desires to take fight while still maintaing control of our natural man?

An Understanding of Life

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I recently went though an experience that I will treasure for the rest of my life, yet wish that I never have to witness again. It's a strange thing to watch someone during the final days of ones mortal life. This gift we have been given is a wonderful and miraculous thing. It's never guaranteed & can easily be taken away. No one knows for sure the thoughts, feelings or experiences when death comes knocking at your door, but if you have prepared, you shall not fear.

At first I was angry. I love my grandmother very much and couldn't imagine life without her. She has been there my entire life, supporting & taking care of me, making sure that life treated me well and that I was able to accomplish everything I wanted. She is the most unselfish person I know followed by my mother. I remember times when we were sick, grandma would rush to our sides and make sure we had plenty to eat or drink, even if we didn't necessarily want it. She would always drop everything she was doing to bring me something I forgot at home to school  or pick us up when we had no ride.

As I spent the past week watching her lie there in a bed, unable to walk, move or take care of herself. Unable to communicate clearly with beloved family members, I realized how important Freedom & Independence are to each of us, but most importantly, how important Agency or the gift of choice is in our eternal plan. I wanted so much to "make" her get better. I thought all we needed to do was make sure the essential life giving elements are applied and things will work out, she will get better. I soon realized how selfish that is of me, to want to "make" my grandmother "get better". It's really her choice, not mine. The same thing happened in our pre-earth life, when the great plan of happiness was laid before us. Lucifer wanted to "make" everyone return to live with our father again. Christ wanted to give us the "choice". It was understood that without a choice, we wouldn't be able to gain the experiences we needed here in this life to become like our father & so the battle was won. Agency survived and Lucifer and his followers were cast out. The first 'choice'. So for me to say 'no grandma, you can't leave me' is in essence trying to take away her agency.

It's painful to watch someone you love so much leave this frail existence. Especially when it was grandma who taught me about the concept of death as each of my cats passed on. I can still remember the yellow dish glove she used for the glove/hand analogy. I've been to many funerals and seen death in my life, but never this close to my heart. You never can imagine such a thing happening in your own family. Life just seems as though it will go on forever, & it will, just not as we know it.  I have come to understand that it's time to let my grandmother go to be with my grandfather & continue her mission on the other side. They've been separated for many years as well as my grandmother's family has all passed on. She is the oldest sibling and the only one still living. When I think about what it would be like to live so many years without my current family or my future wife, I can begin to understand what might compel someone of years to make such a choice, no matter how much they love their posterity. Age, Loss, & Disease all play a part in the culminating result.

As I left yesterday morning to return to Utah, knowing it would probably be the last time I see my grandmother in this life, my heart felt heavy. It ached, begged and pleaded for me to stay but I had to go. As much as I'm going to miss her, I know things will be ok. Life will go on & she will be happier. The lord knows what's best for all his children.

We will one day meet again.

At a CrossRoads- Is it Real?

So it's been awhile since I last wrote, but my life seems to be so very busy these days. There have been so many thoughts running through my mind the past few months, but one seems to remain constant.  I recently met this girl, who I didn't really notice right away. As time went on, we became good friends. She's smart, attractive & a good listener. She's full of surprising qualities...I finally realized the value in our relationship and have since been dating my good-friend. We've been through a lot of ups and downs but what relationship doesn't have those. My Crossroads lies in the future; be it near or far... I'm not a Psychic no matter how hard I try sometimes, so I really don't know where our paths are headed, however, I've enjoyed the road thus far. There are so many questions to answer, so many ideas to consider; sometimes it seems relationships are just plain complicated. It's a wonder two people ever make it work. A good friend of mine said "You seem to be a lot happier since you met her" and in reality he is right. She does have a way of making me smile, even when I just want to have a 'bad day'. So then comes the question... Is this the 'real deal'?

To be honest, I don't know.  That's what I've spent most of my time trying to figure out. Sure Hollywood has it's versions and it makes one think that in order to be 'right' it has to be a whirlwind romance type of relationship, yet I don't feel like that. In fact it feels slow and progressive. I don't feel "the can't eat, can't sleep, over the fence type of stuff" I just enjoy being with her, it just seems to make sense. Others will talk about 'Attraction' and all the physical manifestations of it. Sure I'm so-called 'attracted' but I don't feel as though I have to constantly touch to be happy. Touching is good but in fact I enjoy some space too. So what does it mean to be in the 'real thing'? If everything our society tells us about relationships isn't it? No ones perfect, physically or otherwise... well at least not yet. That's what eternal progression is for. So then how do you know? Church leaders say two 'gospel centered' people who are genuinely interested in each others well being, are selfless, & on the same path can make it work. I don't want to just 'make it work' I want it to be the best thing I've ever experienced, Life Changing. I recently read that Love means Work;  that you have to get up each day and serve the one you 'love', reaffirming your admonitions for each other. It's a gradual process. No day is perfect & there may be times where it's hard and you plain just don't feel like it, but supposedly if you have that commitment inside to persevere then 'love' will come progressively, one step at a time.

So I don't know what it is... Am I afraid of what this could be? If not, then why do I have all these excuses running though my mind... finding every fault it can to convince me otherwise. There are days I feel like I'm on top of the world & everything is great, then the next I haven't got a clue & I'm confused as ever. I used to think there was just one person for each of us in this world, but I'm beginning to see this isn't true. For once was lost can be found again.

So tell me, how does one know when 'it is real'?

The Path

Have you ever felt as if you wanted to do something you knew was totally out of character but you didn’t care?

Have you ever felt completely empty inside?

The feeling that leaves you wondering which way is up and which is down. You don’t know what to do, how to react or even where to go. Thoughts begin to flood your mind leaving you vulnerable, open to temptations, not knowing where the origins are coming from, weather it be good or bad.

Recently I’ve been trying to figure out a lot of things about my life. From career to relationships to spirituality, it’s all a part of who I am. I can’t deny that the experiences I’ve had and the people I’ve met have brought me to the point I am at today, both for the positive and negative. Yet somehow today I feel completely empty. No idea where to go, or what to do. There are so many good things and people in my life and so many good directions I could go; but I can’t seem to shake this feeling. The feeling I might make a mistake or settle for something I shouldn’t. I thought I wanted to be an Art Director for a publishing company & that still might be a worthy goal, yet after some study and discussion with professionals it’s beginning to seem like not necessarily the wrong path to take, but possibly not the best one. I’ve come to find I’m more suited as a designer not a manager.

So what do you do? How do we answer these life altering questions?

Some have said to rely upon the heavenly sources we’re so greatly blessed to have. Don’t get me wrong I trust my savior and know that he will help me, but for some reason I just can’t seem to get myself out of the darkness that seems to consume. Others have said patience is the key, just wait and ‘only time will tell’. Yes, I believe this too, however, I can’t just sit and wait for things to fall out of the sky. The path is straight, it is narrow, this path that leads us home to our heavenly parents, yet no one ever said it would be easy and it definitely is not! It seems the older I get the more complex and complicated things get. I will admit there are times I wish I could go back, back to the time when life made sense and it was simpler. I guess it’s a part of growing up; there must be growing pains in every stage.

Yet, is it too much to ask for a little help? and direction?

So I've been on YouTube lately and surprisingly enough there are quite a few good artists out there. If you like rap/hip hop but you don't like all the dirty lyrics... check this guy out! Mars is starting a new trend...



I chose this video because I found it funny yet so true. In our society today texting is a prevalent concern especially in the world of dating. There literally are romances that exist purely through text.


Here's the other video I found interesting. You'll see why , Check it out!




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Why does nothing go the way it should?

Well really the way we think it should, right... This past month has been one of the most trying times in my life. Everything that could go wrong, has, and everything else just follows along. Nothing seems to work the way I think it should. Some days I feel like just giving up! Each time this happens I wonder what am I exactly giving up? With each passing day, I make it one step up the ladder only to find I'm actually two steps down.

Of course, as usual the dating scene weighs heavily on my mind. I continue to meet very sweet, attractive women yet 'that one' I'm searching for still seems to evade me. I recently had to break off a very good thing, because after serious reflection it just didn't seem right. I never imagined it would be this hard. She is a great person and it really hurt me knowing I had to hurt her. When I was younger I always thought there was some kind of magic that the returned missionaries had on young women. It just seemed like that's how it worked. Go on a mission, marry a beautiful woman... that dream has begun to fade as reality sinks it's teeth into me. Bringing two people together is not easy, yet it's still a commandment from the lord. The adversary would have us believe, it's not that important, that we don't need to get married. Well if that happens the source of our eternal happiness goes with it. No marriage = no family and no purpose for life. So what is the solution?

Where is the one? and why is she causing me so much frustration?

I've dreamed about her since I was a young boy. Hoping one day to meet this person and accomplish all we're meant to do. Yet somehow I can't bring her into my reality, no matter how much I want or try to do so.

Dating isn't the only scene that's going wrong this time. I've enrolled back in school and I thought it would be easy because I enjoy learning about the graphic arts... I was wrong! Ever since I started that program, a plethora of other problems emerged. I can't seem to stay caught up on the assignments & manage my time effectively. My work seems to demand more and more, not to mention mechanical issues with my vehicle and computer and so forth. I'm beginning to wonder... Really? nothing I do seems to fix the issues at hand or even console my frizzed out feelings. I contemplate finding a way to numb the effects of this storm I call a life, but nothing comes to mind.

I know this is what we've all learned to call LIFE... nothing ever really seems to go right and there is nothing to do except enjoy the ride. It will all work out in the end, keep on keeping on.

How do you define a Life?

I recently heard about a 26 year-old young woman, married less than a year, and living life. It seemed to be the beginning of a beautiful future. She recently passed away.

As a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints I believe that each day is a gift from a loving father above and that no one is promised tomorrow. God is aware of each person upon this earth and even though one’s life may seem to be cut short, he does have a plan. There is a plan to life. This fast paced world consists of business meetings, activities, joy, heartache and lots of individual experiences. In all of the things that occupy our time, what is our real purpose?

We know that a spirit and a body make up our soul. Our bodies were created when we were born into this life, known as our birthday. I believe our spirit existed before but for how long no one knows. In the doctrines of the gospel we learn of something called the plan of salvation. It talks about three stages of life: pre, earth and after. It’s a plan that was created in our pre-lives to help us reach our full potential and become more like the father of our spirits. Here on Earth we are prone to sickness, disease and all manner of affliction. All these things give us experience so that we may learn, but this is only a part of life which helps us to realize its true purpose.

Life is about the little things, those dear moments that bring us great joy. The love of a mother, the laugh of a child, family, friends and acquaintances all play a part. The relationships we have and create are really what matters. Life is about the mastering of our souls as we become better individuals through service, sacrifice and love. After all is said and done we can take comfort in the fact that we will get to see our loved ones again.

Elder L. Tom Perry, member of the Quorum of the Twelve Apostles of the LDS church has said “Life on earth is of limited duration. There comes a time for all of us when the spirit and the body are separated in death. But because of the Resurrection of Jesus Christ, we will all be resurrected... Immortality is the gift to every mortal child of our Father in Heaven. Death must be viewed as a portal to a new and better life.”

Age is just a number but somehow we seem to feel more sadness when a younger person is taken rather than one well of years. Thinking about how short life can be and what the meaning of it is causes one to reflect upon this question: What would you write in your own obituary?

Here’s how I would want mine to read:

James C. Saunders, born September 20, 1983 in Carlsbad, New Mexico. Died July 2010 at Provo, Utah. Caring friend and loving brother. A faithful member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. James served a mission for the Church in Riverside, California. In recent years he attended Brigham Young University and recently graduated in Communications. James was known for his honesty, integrity, and sense of right. He was a dependable and a hard worker. He had a passion for culture and a love of art. He often said in later years that his greatest joys in life were spending time with family and friends. Although not married he will be remembered by others as one who was willing to listen, love and serve his fellow man. He is survived by his two brothers, mother & father, several cousins, aunts and uncles. Services will be held Saturday at 2PM at the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints in Carlsbad, NM and will be presided over by Bishop John D. VandeKraats.

Think about it...

Love & Basketball

Love is like sports. I am not a big sports fan overall but the theories are the same. Take basketball for instance, the whole point is to put a ball into a hoop and ‘make the basket’.

How hard is it to simply make a basket? All you have to do is throw a ball in the air and have it land in a hole right?

I spent some time the other day practicing this skill and realized it’s not as easy as the pros or even college players convince us it is. There are those who possess talent and are able to swish every time with little or no effort, then there are those of us like myself who can shoot and shoot and never seem to quite hit the target. Either we’re off by a few inches and sometimes a mile. Maybe there’s not enough arc or force behind the shot. Whatever the case may be, we just can’t seem to reach our goal.

There are people out there who somehow find ‘the one’ almost without trying. It seems like a fairytale, they just meet, fall in love and the rest is history. Others date and date, searching, hoping, and praying that they can find this person. Sometimes is seems to ‘swish’ yet somehow the ball never quite makes it in.

I don’t believe in soul mates but there is something about that feeling. The feeling you get when you can’t wait to see her again or hear her voice even if it’s just to say hello. The way your heart skips a beat every time she walks through the door or the smell of her perfume on a warm summer’s night as you sit by the water and talk. The touch of her hand, the warmth of her hugs and the strength of her smile just seem to get you from the inside out. Knowing that she’ll be there for you no matter how bad you mess things up. Mostly it’s that feeling of wanting to be a better person.

For those who find what they’re looking for quickly, congratulations, for those of us who are still looking, don’t give up. 

Eventually you’ll make the basket.

A Thought about Agency

So this week in my studies I've been learning about taking time to 'listen' to the voice of the lord. Usually it comes as a still small voice, where you need to train yourself to listen for it, but I've also been thinking about agency and how that plays out in our lives. Agency is one key principle that is precious to life. Neither the lord or other individuals can control or take it away, we are the only ones that can use our agency. The choices we make every day effect it one way or another, weather it be for the good or bad.
       Now of course my mind has been caught up with the dating scene as I've met yet another good woman. This one is different in that we have almost everything in common and somehow she has managed to occupy my mind. You can say this is normal for a guy to begin to think about his so-called 'love' interest and I agree that this is a normal part of the dating process.
      Yet, we barely know each other. I have yet to meet this person in 'real life' so to speak but I guess this is how our new society prefers to have relationships, but not this old fashioned romantic guy. I don't mind meeting people this way but it seems courting via the Internet is harder to do than over the telephone or even face to face. It's hard to really get to 'know' someone this way. So how does this play into agency you ask. Well it is my opinion that in order for a relationship to 'bloom' both parties have to submit their individual agencies to the will of the collective just as we submit our agency to the lord's will. It's the only thing we really have to give someone else. Now it takes time to develop this type of relationship but it begins by showing a continued interest in the other party, as each lets the other into their individual lives. Its a game of give and take and there are times it seems hard to do.

The bottom line...

I’ve been doing a lot of thinking again, as I always do. This time prompted by the storyline of a movie called 17 Again. As I watched this flick I couldn’t help but think about the choices I’ve made in my life thus far. Granted there are times I feel like it would be nice to go back to high school and change some choices I made but who would I then be today? I mean the choices we make shape our destinies and ourselves into the person we claim to be. But are we really who we say we are? Look deep inside yourself and ask Am I really happy with my life? Is this the way I always dreamed it would be? I know mine isn’t. Sure I’m about to graduate college and to many this may seem like a great accomplishment but really where does a bachelor‘s degree get you these days. What really matters most in life? It’s the ones you love.

I seem to have this fixation with love, as you’ve probably noticed from many of my posts I center on the idea of “the one”. This mystery person still just seems to escape me. I mean there are times she plagues my dreams, thoughts and mind but she still doesn’t seem to exist except inside. I can’t explain it. I’ve been out on so many dates, meet so many different and wonderful women, yet I still can’t seem to find her. I know there’s no magic fairytale, no fantasy ending this is Real Life. It just seems the older I get the more I find that I need her. A road for one is just no fun. Sure it may seem easier to only have to take care of yourself, do what you want, when you want but it’s not all it’s cracked up to be.

I’ve only been in love once in my life. Somehow I let her get away. So for those of you who believe in soul mates, I don’t, but there is something about that feeling. The feeling you get when you can’t wait to see her again or hear her voice even if it’s just to say hello. The way your heart skips a beat every time she walks through the door or the smell of her perfume on a warm summers night as you sit by the water and talk about all the world has to offer. The touch of her hand, the warmth of her hugs and the strength of her smile just seem to get you from the inside out. The knowledge that she’ll be there for you no matter how bad you screw things up but mostly that feeling of wanting to be a better man.

That’s what love is my friends and that’s what makes life sweet.

That’s just the way it is.

Life...

   

Life has a funny way of moving us along. There are no directions, no user manual but yet somehow we seem to manage. There are those of us who rely on the lord for direction or guidance if you will. Still, somehow we never quite know what’s coming up ahead.  Recently a couple friends of mine have decided to get married. One fairly new acquaintance and one long time Jr High friend.  I’m very happy for them both but there is still something inside of me that isn’t sitting quite right. Now there is no time table for when a person should marry or even if that is the right thing to do, however, personally I still feel empty. Not to say my life is boring by any means, it’s far from it. Work is great and I’ll be finished with BYU in April and life seems to be moving in the right direction yet something still seems to be missing.  Our life’s journey can be compared to an ocean, where there is no end in sight. We climb aboard the boat and set sail on an adventure to the vast unknown, yet sometimes we run into storms and may be washed ashore. When this happens the question becomes, what do we do next?

The air is moist and heavy

the waves splash against the shore

A vast magnificent ocean stands before me

I gaze far off into the distance

I notice something coming towards me

As it gets closer it takes the shape of a boat

I wait for a period of time but when

the moment arrives… it disappears!

I wonder, what just happened?

when I feel a tap on my shoulder

I turn around to find a long lost memory.

Do we take the time to sit and wonder all life has to offer or are we too busy running as fast as we can to get off the island and back onto the water?

The Game

My life seems to be going the way it should, however, the game is beginning to tire me out. Ya'll know what I'm talking about. The never-ending 1st dates associated with the "dating game". This heart wrenching roller coaster takes it passengers on an up, down, side-to-side curving adventure which ultimately leaves the participant tried and sick.

Don’t get me wrong. I’ve met a bunch of beautiful, attractive, intelligent women but I still have yet to find the “one”. The one who knows exactly what to say, the one who you wish could stay, the one who takes over your dreams, the one who takes your breath away, the one you just cant’ get enough of!

I’ve learned a lot from this so-called dating game. We all know you have to ‘be yourself’, be careful not to say or do too much to fast, don’t forget to be considerate and affectionate yet mysterious and allusive. It seems to me that women just don’t really know what they want. They tell you to be open and up front with them, but lets face it when it gets down to it they want a challenge. They want to chase you! Just as you want to chase them.

Amidst all this game playing, how does anyone get together? You see it all over college campuses, inside malls, parks and other recreation areas. People are holding hands, kissing and loving each other, but where does that come from? Experience teaches that love is nothing but a “battlefield” as Jordan Sparks put it.

A guy may do everything perfect, treat her with respect & all she has ever dreamed of yet she still says something to the effect of “It’s just not there” or the infamous line “let’s just be friends”. I’ve experienced the whole range of these non-explanatory lines women use on men. I believe women are scared of the upcoming commitment to the relationship and because she’s not sure about you, she would rather give you the boot and leave her options open. I’ve spent time figuring out what exactly women are looking for in a relationship and it just doesn’t seem to make any sense. Sure, you can ask a woman out, go on several dates, show her fun, romance, and a new world but she still bolts. What’s with that?

Thankfully there a lot of fish in the sea, just keep pulling them out and sending back until you find the one who fits You!

Hello

Hello everyone,

I've decided to start a blog... and finally get on the trend, but I was wondering what to blog about???? Then I decided that I should probably just start writing and something will show up. So here it is.... a blog about adventure! Well my adventures since I seen to have them every day & we'll add some advice in here too. So if you need it, feel free to ask...