I’ve been doing a lot of thinking again, as I always do. This time prompted by the storyline of a movie called 17 Again. As I watched this flick I couldn’t help but think about the choices I’ve made in my life thus far. Granted there are times I feel like it would be nice to go back to high school and change some choices I made but who would I then be today? I mean the choices we make shape our destinies and ourselves into the person we claim to be. But are we really who we say we are? Look deep inside yourself and ask Am I really happy with my life? Is this the way I always dreamed it would be? I know mine isn’t. Sure I’m about to graduate college and to many this may seem like a great accomplishment but really where does a bachelor‘s degree get you these days. What really matters most in life? It’s the ones you love.
I seem to have this fixation with love, as you’ve probably noticed from many of my posts I center on the idea of “the one”. This mystery person still just seems to escape me. I mean there are times she plagues my dreams, thoughts and mind but she still doesn’t seem to exist except inside. I can’t explain it. I’ve been out on so many dates, meet so many different and wonderful women, yet I still can’t seem to find her. I know there’s no magic fairytale, no fantasy ending this is Real Life. It just seems the older I get the more I find that I need her. A road for one is just no fun. Sure it may seem easier to only have to take care of yourself, do what you want, when you want but it’s not all it’s cracked up to be.
I’ve only been in love once in my life. Somehow I let her get away. So for those of you who believe in soul mates, I don’t, but there is something about that feeling. The feeling you get when you can’t wait to see her again or hear her voice even if it’s just to say hello. The way your heart skips a beat every time she walks through the door or the smell of her perfume on a warm summers night as you sit by the water and talk about all the world has to offer. The touch of her hand, the warmth of her hugs and the strength of her smile just seem to get you from the inside out. The knowledge that she’ll be there for you no matter how bad you screw things up but mostly that feeling of wanting to be a better man.
That’s what love is my friends and that’s what makes life sweet.
That’s just the way it is.
